2014

Progress, and a good day

Today, after college, I got on a treadmill and kicked ass. This was despite walking to my bus stop, and nearly getting the first bus home because I felt like I didn’t have the energy for a run. At the last minute, I turned around and decided I did. I was right.

I ran 10km in under an hour for the first time, and was 3 minutes and 13 seconds faster than my previous personal best. I’m still 14 minutes and 47 seconds off my goal time, but today, I made a lot of progress. I am closer to reaching my goals now than when I got out of bed this morning. So it was a good day.

I realised that most of the things that limit me and hold me back are in my head. I am capable of a lot more than I give myself credit for. I definitely need to work on having a more self-positive mindset. I need to believe I can do things, reach goals, and if I put in the work, I will. I need to stop being so discouraged with myself.

Every time I run, I try to remind myself that 8 months ago, I could only run 1 kilometre, and my legs hurt for a day after that attempt. So when I feel like giving up, I think of where I can be in 3 months, or 6 months, or a year if I don’t. The future is exciting.

New Years Resolutions

I like New Years Eve.

It’s a holiday that is centred around new beginnings, a fresh start. It’s a chance to reflect on the year that has just passed, to learn from your mistakes, and move on. It’s a time of great hope.

Putting 2013 behind me is very important for me. 2013 was a year where a lot changed for me, for the better. I graduated from  school and began studying  Science in college. I made new friends, learned a lot about myself, and became a lot stronger.

But I also spent a lot of 2013 afraid.

I was afraid to say no, afraid to say yes, afraid to speak my mind, afraid of trying new things, sometimes even afraid of trying at all. I was afraid of failing, afraid of how I felt, afraid of talking about my feelings, and afraid of what was happening inside my head. I was afraid of losing control, and when I eventually did, I was petrified.

So these are my resolutions, and goals. Some are for 2014, some are for the rest of my life.

  1. To run a mini marathon.
  2. To run 10km in 45 minutes.
  3. To run 5km in under 20 minutes.
  4. To pass first year science.
  5. To go to society events in college.
  6. To be happy, healthy, fit and strong.
  7. To be confident.
  8. To become closer to my friends.
  9. To stop biting my nails.
  10. To practice self care regularly.
  11. To let go of thoughts that do not make me feel empowered and strong.
  12. To waste less, and learn to live on what I have.
  13. To be more open, to engage with people and life more.
  14. To spend more time outdoors.
  15. To learn to drive.

I set up this blog today so that I can track and document the changes in my life over the next year, and beyond. 😀